Stressors

School started at some point in the recent past, but at this point is now a despairing blur of technicalities and reading. But still fun, I think. I enjoy learning to some extent, but schools enjoy making that as difficult as possible (note that this is no reflection my teachers who are all good). I missed the first day of school because of fatigue and lightheadedness and the school's paranoia about swine flu which I didn't have, but was pleased to stay home. About that time my financial aid was revoked and I had to have a couple conversations with various people and some applications and signatures which ended this week in me having to get student loans for the first time since they refused to give me any money. The icing on the cake is having it happen around the first days of school instead of, maybe, months before that since they had all the information they needed to do so at that time as well. One interesting thing is that the grant money they promised me is sitting in my bank account. My school account is on hold, I'm guessing they are displeased with me. What can I do about it? I'm not paying registration fees until I get money to pay for it. I wish I knew more about loans now. I have no idea what they want me to do and days keep passing with money not where it should be. I did get out of a writing skills test they were planning to make me take which I will likely get a partial refund for. I'm trying to get everything done. I like that the school has such a awful system that whenever they need info or anything from you, instead of actually sending you an email, they expect you to track down what they want from you without knowing that they need it from you or how you are to complete it. That's what I've been dealing with for the past couple weeks. (note that a lot of schools don't have this problem. UC Berkeley for instance has a wonderful email notification system. I refrain from mentioning the school I go to now since I'm already at odds with them for something out of my control). Also I was going to apply for a Fulbright Scholarship through said school, but now have to do it "At-large" since the adviser was going to give me a sucky recommendation because of my major.

One anecdote I'd like to slip in here is that one of my co-workers and I had a lot of fun Saturday messing up one of our other co-workers youtube accounts which was left on the work computer. After adding lots of odd videos including: I'm a cute kitten, a stormtrooper doing a lude dance, some boy band videos, the trailer to Twilight, a scene from The Golden Girls, some Barbie ads, and a Fabio video; we proceeded to change his entire profile page. This included changing the background pink with N'Sync wallpaper, changing all of the information about him including that he likes to show off his legs and thinks he's a stud, and changing his profile picture to a slightly overweight older man wearing a loin cloth and some odd leather straps in an interesting and almost masculine pose. Since then, he has gotten a new account because of "hackers." I texted him today to mention that maybe there was some "mutiny" among the co-workers that resulted in this display of playfullness. It will live on forever in a nice Word document saved to the work computer which I will soon email to myself and have the pictures forever.

Back to school; however, I am swimming in reading. I always have between 12 and 20 reading assignments per week on top of at least one assignment, attending classes everyday except Friday, work on weekends, and my fair coordinating duties. Plus I might be tutoring 2 hours a week and I have to observe in schools on Fridays. I'm busy in any case and am stressing out. I'm not one to get many zits, but the ones I'm getting now because of stress take forever to get off my face. I've got two or three (in various stages of healing) on my face right now and they seem to be really vindictive and refuse to go away. They're not particularly vulgar, large, or gross, but I hate getting them. Another stress factor is my insomnia. For the past 3 or so nights I've had some form of insomnia, some related to the allergies I have been having at night which I usually don't have at bedtime. Last night, I slept okay and was actually able to sleep-in minus my insane neighbor throwing things around and making incoherent babblings outside my window at midnight for nearly half an hour. That was really fun. Then he complained to my stepmom and made her clean up the mess that he said our other neighbors had made. She's really got to start calling the local mental institution for assistance. There's really no arguing with him since nothing he says makes since or has anything to do with anything.

I also attended a movie premiere in my hometown called Lizard Boy which I was in for a couple seconds. I brought my brother's friend Phil to it. It was interesting and fun.

To do list: read, stay in school, get band for street faire, don't die, sleep well, get through this quarter, have time to chill and watch TV, get boyfriend, try to have fun.